Every so often I like to impose my “this is my personal blog” rule and write some emo dribble and then impose it upon the handful of readers I have.  Sorry!

***Warning, this particular flight of fancy is full of pity parties, fever induced babble, bad metaphors, general whinybuttedness, made up words, all heavily laced with OTC medication.  Don’t say I didn’t warn you.***

Since I’ve been super sick I’ve had a lot of free time to sit around and ponder… ponder while in a cold medicine addled haze… but ponder nonetheless.  One of the things I pondered was where I’m going with my SL shop and what exactly I want out of it.  Well, of course, the answer to what I want is fame and money.  Naturally right?  But seriously, I really would like to have my shop pay for itself so to speak, tier and upload fees… which it has not been doing.  Part of the problem lays in pricing, which I stupidly dropped recently because I caved to asshats demanding lower prices.  Dumb, to be sure.  Part of the problem lays in my non-existent advertising.  Were it not for the kindness and awesomesaucedness of bloggers occasionally highlighting my shit, I’d never have even made a linden.  And a huge part of the problem lays in my own hangups about what I do.  Mod skins.  MOD.  I can’t get over that weird feeling that I should not be allowed to advertise what I do.  That it’s somehow so much less than creating something from scratch.. which it kind of is, but still.  I keep trying to tell myself that with the exception of the bodies, my skins (especially my newest ones) are very different from the original template.  I think they look different than other people’s mods.  And I price them ridiculously low because of guilt?  Something like that.  Yes it’s stupid, I know.  So I fail.  Nothing really new or different when thinking on it this time versus the last time I had an emo meltdown over my shop.  I still fail at advertising and my skin prices are still way too dang low to ever turn an actual profit, let alone pay tier.    So where does all that mumble leave me?  I have a couple of options as I see it.  

Option #1, leave it as is.  No more new releases, no more freebies, but the shop stays up as long as I can muster to pay for it.  This option blows because it’s currently what I’m doing and it sucks.

Option #2, shut down and leave town.  Close the shop, sell the land, salt the earth.  Dramatic!  Well I’ve considered this option a few times and it has it’s merits because I’d no longer have to deal with jerks complaining and I’d no longer have the emo meltdowns about my stuff which would be a nice change of pace.  But I honestly enjoy having my little shop, despite the occasional bad outweighing the good.. which creates the problem with this option.

Option #3, last ditch effort.  The riskiest of all.  What I’ve considered doing with this option is blowing the works.  Setting aside my personal hangups.  Expanding the shop because I’m almost out of prims, going whole hog.  Putting my nose to the grindstone to come up with a huge release.  Using a lot of metaphors.  And trying my damndest to advertise the hell out of it.  This option, quite frankly, scares the crap out of me because it will either succeed or blow up in my face.  It’s also a lot of work and I’ll admit it, I’m effing lazy.  But more importantly, I’m quite scared that it will fail and I’m not sure I want to deal with the backlash of it all.  

I’d like to give a special thanks to Nyquil for the part it played in this particular moment.

I might go browse for some land just out of curiosity.  But I think I’ll wait until I’m OTC medication free before making any major decisions.  In fact, I should probably go take a nap.

And here’s a random picture, cause that’s what I do.

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